Tag: lost

Hey folks! I hope you all are doing well and staying safe. Today I want to talk about how I have been feeling and how I might be trying to help myself.

For the past few months, I have been so overwhelmed and on top of that I have started to feel like I don’t know who I am.

I know that I live with my family, go to school, have great friends, but that;s it. I mean I can’t even ask a simple question like “What’s your favorite color?”

Last year, I was the short girl who got funnier the more you got to know her. I had a new video, new book, new story every day to talk about. I gave all my friends hugs and supported them in every way I could. I was so into psychology and wanted to help people.

Now, I don’t even know the right things to say at times and have been finding myself re-reading or re-watching the same thing over and over and when I do watch or read something, I barely remember. I have barely texted my friends and haven’t picked up a psychology book in months.

So many things are changing, not just in the world, but within me and I have no idea how to cope. My life feels like it’s a constant loop of work and fake smiles. I mean I still do everyday things. I have a whole to-do list of assignments I have to do, watch all sorts of YouTube channels (maybe Netflix shows), and make sure to do what needs to be done.

I am so insecure and doubt myself so much. There are times where I can’t even properly talk about stuff I like or about something from the past, because I won’t know if it’s fake. It is almost like there are two different people living inside of me. I have always loved being the center of attention and loved it when people asked me about me, but now just friends asking me about my day makes me uncomfortable.

Here are some things that I might start doing to help me find myself again.

Note: These are no way recommended to be used in replacement of professional help and are just some things that I want to try to use to help myself. Also, I will be writing another post on an update on the things to see if it helped or not.

• Try new things. Since my main problem is the fact that I don’t know much about myself and feel like I don’t have a personality, I will try to try new hobbies and interests that are popular (and preferably cheap). Here are some things that I want to start doing

1. Watch different genres of TV shows and movies
2. Try out new hobbies
3. Try some things my friends like to do (It will bring us together and hopefully help me find new interests.)

• Try to do things that I used to like. Although I was (and still am) really insecure, I loved reading and writing. I was very self-conscious about everything that I wrote but it brought me joy. I had amazing ideas and loved writing them down.

I also read some articles on what to do when you’re feeling lost and here are some things I took away –

Note: I am in no way trying to steal the content from those articles. I will leave the links to these articles at the end of the post. Feel free to check them out, if you want :))

• Make decisions. Even if it’s small ones, make them.
• Make a list of all your favorite things. It can be anything from your favorite color to your favorite to your favorite movies.

I know this was a very out of the blue and short post, but I still hope all of you enjoyed it. Please remember to hydrate and take care of yourself. You are loved and will forever be valid. 

Here is the link to the article I read.